Tuesday, July 4, 2006

Maybe

Have you ever felt like maybe you weren't as good a person as you thought you were?

I've been feeling that a lot lately. Sometimes I'm disturbingly absolutist in the way I look at the world and at morality. My rational mind is more like "shades of grey" but my gut is way more judgemental. "Right and wrong!" says the gut, "Sin and hellfire!"

Should I get any credit for applying that to myself at least as much as I do to other people? Probably not.

But I feel sympathy for the Devil on occasion. When I think about all the famous bad guys, like Hitler and Charles Manson and the aforementioned David Spade I sometimes think about how they were all babies once. I tend to think that tabula rasa they were all okay, as babies generally tend to be okay. Then life happens and well, sometimes you get Hitler, most babies are a lot better than that but hey, doesn't change the fact that he was a baby and he didn't mean any harm.

What was my point? I don't know, it was probably that babies generally, are okay.

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